7.18.2005


Faces
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Kissin Colins
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the unhappy couple

7.13.2005

i have given ari so so so many outs from our relationship and she has refused all of them. for once.

is it bad if she asks me if im happy and i lie and say yes? i feel like i could be happy but not the way things are.

when youre in a relationship how much contact with an ex is acceptable? i feel like no contact would be the best but is not necessary. are long drawn out phone conversations in the middle of the night ok? im thinking no. i dont know. i feel like im not sure if i have the right to freak out or not. i want to. i am on the inside.

today several people at work made me want to slit their throats.

i think i need to get back on my meds asap cause im feeling a lot less balanced right now.

is it normal as an early twentysomething to be constantly worried that youre starting to manfest your schizophrenia? worrying that the voices might start getting louder or that you might go through with your impulsive thoughts and hurt yourself or someone else. i dunno.

7.09.2005


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whats up with that double chin. im the skinniest person i know why is there a double chin?!



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Originally uploaded by jambonchampignon.

so today i finally made the step of permanently marking my skin with a big 'ole tatoo. not really... its not that big. i like it amd really glad the way it came out. but i still havent removed the bandage so i havent had time to look at it and obsess over whether or not its actually good. its better that i dont cause its there and so im going to try to just ignore it for a while and see what people say about it and just be happy that i did it and i was ok and it didnt really hurt too much and i didnt cry nor wince really.

i think its going to be sexy

ill post pics as soon as i take off the paper towel taped to my arm


Tommy sleepin
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caleb sleepin
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lesbians



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my nipple



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thank god amanda broke free of that baby



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sometimes aurora gets really drunk on bourbon street and throws her self at axl rose look-a-like lead singers of g'n'r cover bands. this time she was just dancing with me



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i love my sister especially when she is headbanging like a good girl

7.05.2005



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we also went to the aquarium and saw many things. best of all was the jellyfish exhibit.



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we were silly tourist and went to cheers



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Originally uploaded by jambonchampignon.

7.01.2005


Bound for the Colin Blog
Originally uploaded by Scramberlee.
yes this is another picture of me. I LOVE ME! and you obviously do too if all you do is sit around all day hoping that i blog something new and interesting. this is from the barra libre party at giorgio's last night.