i finally finished my draft of my research paper and i presented it at the undergraduate conference on latin american studies yesterday. what a relief. i feel like i completely different person. but this really only opens me up to do the other work that ive not been doing.

i slept 2 hours last night and woke up wide awake. and i had taken tylenol pm and still i woke up wide awake at 4. usually i can barely drag myself out of bed at 9.

all lars von trier netflix delivery yesterday. watched dancer in the dark. it made me really tense and anxious waiting for the horrificness. but better than the first time i saw it when i was completely drawn into it emotionally and almost killed myself afterwards.

tonight or maybe tomorrow dogville. i think dogville is even more horrible but at least at the end there is some retribution.

people are so bad. we are an ugly species.

george has never heard of either dogville or dancer in the dark. i told him theyre both about human nature and how horrible we can be. he was shocked by dancer in the dark. but he said he liked it.

i'll be home a week from friday, prepare gifts and festivities