i want this medicine to work. i want to be functional again. im perfectly happy being just functional and not normal. im used to it. but this is just unbearable. my mother gave me my striking good looks, my anorexia and my depression.

gilmore girls is making me feel better though. i am embarassed that i watch gilmore girls but it was on tv in brazil ievery day so i watched like the whole show from the beginning so now im trapped in the show.

why does natalie imbruglia get to still be famous? i mean one hit wonder turned makeup spokeswoman. dont get it. shes not incredible or anything.

oh and ari says she will probably come home for christmas. makes me sooo happy.