the therapist says that i meet the criteria for severe depression and general anxiety disorder. we will see what the pshychiatrist thinks. lets hope some medication helps.

i keep on having problems with stupid computers. i did a whole bunch of work on the thing that got fucked up when my computer crashed and then it didnt save any of it when i saved it for some reason and so im back at square one once again.

it has been ninety degrees for two days now and its going to stay at 90 for another week according to the tv. im melting. maybe i will go to the beach again this weekend.

tomorrow i go for a session with a doctor who does biofeedback and im going to get all hooked up to machines and then he is going to teach me how to control my body ie my heart rate. ah the power of the mind.