i was happy tonight to hear amanda say "does this have a carb" it made me remember that she was once a normal person without a child who went out got fucked up and just as bad if not worse than me. seeing her as a mother has made me forget that she is a real person. but im thrilled to be reminded.

im terribly romantic feeling. i miss ari. so tempting to call. whats important to me is romance not sex. sex is always available while romance is a moving target.